I’m doing just fine.
This winter is going to be very, very different.
It’s harder than it seems to let go. But I have to. You don’t deserve me or what I do for you.
iloveyou though fa’rill..
What a bumday.
G.I. Joe was fucking great.
Giants are losing, FUCK.
Mclellan: I’m going make you really unhappy.
Duke: I’m already unhappy.
” Once upon a time nobody gave a fuck. Now it’s all said and done, and my cock’s been sucked.”
Kbizzness.
A.K.A - I Don’t give a fuck, Bad Bitch. Bad Mrs., Crybaby, Emofuck, Faggot, Cuntface, BFFL.
This stupid post is dedicated to you, just because of what I read.
December 28, 2007 <3
The day our hearts crossed paths, and the warmth of the angels sang a cherubim of metaphoric and figurative love that would be known today as Katrina and Noel.
Yea as of late, things haven’t been the same. And just as much as you don’t give a fuck, I won’t lie, I do to an extent. I haven’t had that time like I used to. As much as I try, I feel like you just shoot down my efforts. And yes since I’m legally poor, money issues gets you super tightt. But I honestly don’t have any intentions of taking advantage of you. For all I care, you don’t have to pay for any of my shit. As much as you don’t want to believe, I can take care of myself =]
I’ve done alot for you, and you’ve probably done as much for me, fuck it even more. You’ve been by my side, and lately it hasn’t. Ever since Timmy got you that gay ass hello kitty thingy, that’s when we changed. I can for sure pinpoint it out there. It honestly took alot out of me to accept the fact that Timothy Mothball has your heart and you are happy with his cuntface. And your happiness is my demise, so I really hope your happy teehee.
As for when we first met, we both were emo TOGETHER remember that? Advice for each other and shit. We got super tight. Your birthday, jabbawockeez, my birthday, the 3s, the 1’s. You are my Main Bitch. like MAIN. Everyone knows that.
Everyone in the clique knows. My “Baruch Friends” know. My FAMILY knows. Katrina Ugly Bencio, you are my main squeeze. So there’s no denying that. It ain’t a sometimes thing bitch. We haven’t had those talks like we used to, and I’ll tell you, it’s ‘cuz I’m scared. I’m scared of what you have to say because it will be a mixture of something I don’t believe and something that may or may not be true. And it would be hard to accept I guess. And last year we had our “Fridays” that was fun fa shoo. I’ll never let you go. Like I told you day 1.
You are more than my bffl, my main bitch, my lover, my sex buddy, my drug dealer, my porn partner, etc.
You are my family.
And yea I don’t have alot of dough, but your Christmas present is gonna be bomb diggy. Promise with my love and heart.
Katrina Bencio go die, but before you do I want you to know I love you.
I’ll get all mushy in front of the world because you my heart bitch.
I LOVE YOU.. say it back.
Great night.. Great nightt..
Thanks for the retarded Hooters birthday surprise. lol.
Absolutely effin’ love Beatles Rockband.
Great night, with great company.
=D
I remember telling my boys I would never fall in love.
Used to think I’d never find a girl I could trust.
Then you walked into my life and it was all about us.
But now I’m sitting here thinkin’ how we messed it up.
This birthday week was quite good. =]
Thanksgiving night was swell. I’m glad I got to see all the people I needed to this birthday.
Katrina! Thanks for rollin’ through thanksgiving! You cunt fuck. Love you.
Black Friday shopping was coooolll as wellll, and the “surprise” party lol.
Thanks Isa!
I really believe I needed that night to happen.
Though I was both super drunk&lifted, the very significant moments did it’s part.
The certain people that made me realize what I needed to, my successes and my failures. How I was feeling set the tone for alot of shit. And I should have processed that being a leader, I should have caught on to these things, but I was isolating myself believing no one knew the deal. Apparentley it was obvious to everyone around me.
I remember someone telling me.
“Noel, you can do sooo much better. You’re one of the best people I know, even though we barely connect because of our cliques. You may believe your group is the best, but I believe my group is just as good, you just don’t see it. You choose them over us all the time, when you know damn well it can be all of us. That’s why I joined because you were one of the funniest people I know, and whenever we come in, your attitude sets the tone. And as of late, it’s been shitty for the wrong reasons. You shouldn”t be down or any of that because it’s not worth it, you can do so much better. You shouldn’t let yourself be played like this. I may not know everything, but from what I see you’re letting yourself be wrapped around the finger…..”
Amazing how I remembered such a great speech right? lol There was so much more, but I’m a bit lazy right now.
The funny part about, “me doing so much better,” was the mere fact that I thought I found the best. I guess I blinded myself. My own faults. And I accept that. Thanks to all those who’ve opened my eyes fully. Those who knew they did, and those who didn’t even notice how they did. I am eternally grateful.
The really funny part was the fact that this guy Genesis knew almost everything somehow. I make fun of him so much because of my insecurities, but he does put it on himself as well lol. It’s amazing how he analyzed me so well, and knew what I felt. Genesis, you’re an alright guy lol.
P.S. - I love to be the motherfucker to tell you “I told you so.”
Good luck. No hard feelings. No love lost.
Wow since last week, I’ve been going crazy, slowly yet successfully.
It’s just not fair though.
i think i’m feeling better?
It’s definitley been a while.
But I try to play it cool and let things work. Some say that’s my downfall. Waiting.
I hope I feel better tomorrow, shittttttttt. cough cough.
